I have a very beautiful friend who has this amazing mind and taste! She is so stylish that I am afraid she eclipses everyone when she passes by! And I must admit I am jealous of her music abilities! (Repent O my soul!)
She is the kind of friend any one wishes to have. She is thought provoking, genuine, honest, smart,... and today she got me thinking about becomings... She asked: "How do we forgive ourselves for all of the things we did not become?"
I, by no means, am trying to answer this question or offer anything of deep meaning but this question carries a certain type of emotion that moves a poor soul like mine... Words do affect me...
I wanted to tell her that she has nothing to forgive herself for but it seemed a bit vague said like that... I dare not say I know her for there is only One who absolutely knows us but I do know enough to know (are you counting the knows?) that she has become one blooming flower form a very lovingly planted seed!
I started thinking what have I or her not become.... Beside wanting to have white hair, I am the most unambitious lady you will ever meet. The things I have not become... Dear me, I must have been living very dumbly all these years, I only wanted to live (truly) and I feel I have achieved the goal so far... but then...
I do not know how to exactly put my thoughts so bear with me...
But then a flow of thoughts filled my mind... Before I created you in the womb I knew you... There is nothing you can become but my Image. You were created to be in communion with me, to be loved by me and to love me and there is really nothing else you must become. Have no remorse and weep not for the past... with me there is no time, no past, no future... I am here transforming you to become the only becoming you should become. You are in my hands and I am forming you, you have only to trust me, to put your faith in me, to shift your mind from the focus of this world and his standards and look and me, gaze at my face and become my reflection and nothing else!
And my soul did rest... and I hope yours too will rest in the knowledge that He knows you and you are becoming who He is in you... because really there is no ambition better or worth more than this one, to be His Reflection!
But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works,which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.