Friday, April 24, 2015

Everlasting Splendours

Warning: One of the "pouring out my heart" posts. I firmly believe I am a cow or some sort of ruminating animal!! Repetition is my speciality! 

I have been overwhelmed lately (when am I not?). I have known beauty. My breath have been taken away on many many occasions (I think it is happening a lot, to a point that I might die from asphyxia soon!). I have learned to expect wonderful things to happen. It might be childish hope but how can it be not so and we are only getting closer to heaven and not further! Sailing home to Him and it won't be long... By the light of the Sun I will press on... Carried by true hope and as Shakespeare would put it, "True hope is swift, and flies with swallow’s wings".  It is a beautiful thing the passing of time and it carries beautiful surprises!

Oh my heart still burns from the Love that I have found in people! 
At a dinner (even a totally random eclectic one!), at a brunch, over a cup of lemonade or iced coffee, sharing a book, sharing my brightest ideas (probably the silliest, scariest ideas ever put in words!), walking together, or just sitting looking at the world....

I have found whom my soul loves and I have invited you into my heart, into my life, into my mind (sorry for that! poor you!!)... 
I have found you in old friendships; for you I am forever grateful! You have been my clutch, my anchor, my joy, my pride and your generosity have put mine to shame! You are in every memory of beauty I have known!
I have found you in new friendships; for you I bow my knees before God every night and pray for you and ask Him, what have I done to deserve to get to know people as holy as you! Living saints from whom I learned in such a small time, what my stiff neck have been refusing to learn for a long time. I know it in the deepest place of my heart that you are to stay in my life, in an way or another. You are too precious to lose!

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honourable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. Philippians 4:8

And who is more true, more honourable, more just, more pure, more lovely, more commendable, more excellent, more worthy of praise than Christ Jesus ! To think of Him at every moment!
And who is more true, more honourable, more just, more pure, more lovely, more commendable, more excellent, more worthy of praise than you my dear friends, created at His image, loved (oh so very loved), cherished, saved... by God himself!! A beautiful mystery! You are Everlasting Splendours as would C.S. Lewis put it!

♥ I think of you all the time. I am a happy person ♥

Friday, April 17, 2015


On Wednesday I use a new nail polish, GOLD. Now every time I look at my fingers I smile! Gold is really a very pretty colour, it makes me very happy! I started thinking about fingers and trying to pick my favourite one (I think it is the fourth finger from the right hand) and I was thinking about how beautiful the hand is and how God is really a wonderful creator... And from one thought to the other, I realized that fingers are really amazing! They are so sophisticated! They mark our ability! Our talent as a race to manipulate things finely... And it is beautiful! All the wonderful calligraphy art, the handmade creations, the detailed sewing, it is truly breathtaking! But I could not help myself from thinking that truly some of these fingers have a better value, or worse (the middle finger! oops!) and the pinky made it to the category of useless finger pretty easily: "ciao guys, I'm off to do nothing, see you later!" I know the pinky is of such a use for a flute player, but how many of us are? okay maybe more than I imagined but how many use it to play the harp? really not many! The use of this finger is not widespread! That little addition for the might-need-me situations! and this made me really peaceful! I thought about my existence and how really I am not an index at all, all useful and crucial, and I hope I am not a middle finger!... I am most probably a pinky! God cared to make me because he makes things nice and beautiful and as of my use, I am sure He is playing some harp somewhere with me as much as that is rare, it is still something!! And I hope I learn to be an easy to manipulate finger, moving at the will of Lord! 

Ps. Drinking tea like an elegant lady (not) with my pinky up in the air! *ting ting ting* (the sound of my waving finger)
Pps. This post has the right to be in pink... after all!

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

My Heart: A Hatching Egg!

In an attempt to erased all hope of someone mistakenly believing in my sanity, I will pour a little of my heart out, again! (But to my defence, the image of eggs is not far from spring and Easter!)
I never knew joy felt this amazingly similar to pain! It burns!
I feel as if my heart was an egg and for forty days and then suddenly a singling little chick came out. It was sitting under the warmth of books and under efforts of abstinence (I miserably failed at that!!) and this week, it hatched, it burst! I did feel the time. I was waiting for that first air of Resurrection to be breathed and heard and now I can't stop dancing, singing, smelling! I was waiting for the wine to be served and now I am drunk under the shining sun! Nature is more beautiful now. Everything seems to have gained honour and value! Everything is purer!! I am discovering  again the ever ancient discovery of the loveliness of friends! The splendour of human beings that come from the Splendour of His image! The splendour of Him who won the battle. The splendour of the Victorious king! 
The Risen Christ!
I have my tears mixed with my laughs! It is unfathomable and yet so real! It is indescribable yet so clear! It everlasting. It is why I live and why I will die for. 
I want to continue but I feel words are ruining it so I will leave it as it is, but know that it cannot fill the universe if it was to be written down as a whole!
Happy Easter!

Ps. What adds to the delight of today that it's my beloved papa's birthday!

Wednesday, April 1, 2015

April's Fool

It is the first of April today! 
I have been particularly interested in dates this year because I got a new notebook that has dates on it and I feel so very powerful that I can actually know what day we are! 
It is called as well April's Fool Day! And one cannot miss a day they celebrate him at it! One cannot miss a day they celebrate anything! Especially if we can throw confetti... (I think a prank with confetti would be really amazing!!)
Since I feel it is my feast day today! I have been more foolish than not today and basically every day... Therefore I want to celebrate by throwing some confetti here with a list of questions! 

1- Will you be my bridesmaid? (for the guys: will you marry me?) 
2- What would you name yourself if you had a chance to pick you own name?
3- Do you like inhaling or exhaling more?
4- Do you think the apples seeds we throw, grow somewhere?
5- Why are all my friends so lovely? 
6- Have all the particles of Oxygen in the universe been breathed at least once before?
7- Do you like the  letter i?
8- Are you happy?
9- Do you like your eyelashes? 
10- What makes you giggle?
11- Guess what?

If you are a fellow fool and  you want to answer them, I would be delighted to read your answers. Thank you!