Friday, February 27, 2015

I Finally Met Her!

Sunday something, actually a couple of  extraordinary events happened! I do have a tendency to draw to me extraordinary things! Obviously, opposites attract!
The first out of the ordinary thing is that I accepted willing to go to a hike in the snow! I was quite excited actually! It is not the hike that I dreaded! I really love to walk and pretty much walk everywhere if I have the chance to! But the snow and me, though opposite (The exception that did not prove the rule I guess!) do not, to say the least, attract! I had a horrible snow related incident growing up and since, I have a fear of it! But I took one big leap of courage... no, not truthfully! I did not know there will be this much snow... Force majeur, I could not go back so I had to go forward! (Can't I have credit for that? Bravo me!) But it was worth it! This immersion therapy worked well! I did cheat a bit, walking on the steps of someone before me, ashamedly maybe ten years younger than myself! The whole thing was very enjoyable! The people were so so wonderful!!
The second very amazing thing that happened is what I really wanted to share!
When I was a little kid at school, there was a nice building facing us with balconies full of nice flowers and plants. On one of them, there was a lady who used to sunbathe everyday when we had our long break! I thought she was a princess or a fairy with her long silky beautiful hair and fair lovely skin. I saw her daily in the morning with her beautiful loose braid walking out of the Church with a smiling peaceful face... she really made such an impression on little me. I used to look up and say in my little naive brain then when I grow up I will be like her! I will be this beautiful! Now the odds, called odd for a reason, did not work that way and I did not turn out to be a fairy like princess! 
I often thought about this lady later on in life, what would our conversation be, what would the encounter be like, what will I say, how she will react, bref... I never saw her again since I left school and that in truly ten years ago! I developed a love for the sun that reminded me of her habit and because I am fascinated by lovely hair and braids (vendredi vanité!) 
Until! This Sunday! On a hike, on the snow! Really life is so beautifully odd!! I could not believe it! Is she really going with me to the same walk? It was one moment of wawness (waw with an a is a higher level of a wow with an o! try to say it and see!). I hesitently approached her and told her: are you really this lady that lives here and sunbathed and does this lovely braid... and she said yes so I told her, I thought you were a princess and I always wanted to meet you! You are the most elegant lady I knew and your face shines the love and peace of God when you walk that I really wanted to be your friend! Her reaction was not what I expected! or maybe I did! She hugged me and told me I am an angel! She had little tiny tears in her eyes and told me that she never heard such sincere compliments... 
There are two things that I kept from this wonderful meeting! To keep on never keeping a compliment in my stomach! Really this does miracles! God always looks down upon us with compliments! 
And the second thing is, really there is nothing too high or too far or too impossible! I never imagined in my life to meet this lady but it happened! What seems so far away in a second can become so close and what is too high in a word from the mouth of God becomes low and what is impossible for men is really possible for Him! 

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Moth Free Soul

Last Monday, while I was picking up some friends, nature decided to entertain me!
I do not mind moths in general. They remind me that I should always seek the light and that is really beautiful. I mind them in particular, when I am sitting in my car, it is raining outside and it decides to spend some time flying around me.
When it stopped pouring and only a few gentle drops coming down, I decided to get out of the car and open the doors to free that little creature. I waited for about five minutes (yeah my friends did take long to come down, about a quarter of an hour!) and then I closed again and there was no sign of the moth in the car even after scrupulous (that is a cool word) search! I thought I was the champion (I have the song We are the Champions my Friends and we'll keep on fighting till the end ♪♪ coming to mind and I hope you as well are brain singing it now). The moth is out and I am free and happy again in a moth-free safe car!
I bet you guessed, and you got it right! A few days later, almost a week later actually, on Monday this week, the moth showed up again!! I was really really surprised! I mean where was it! I totally thought it was kicked out! But this time I made sure I saw it getting out of the window! 
Such a timely anecdote! Nature is so cool! seriously!
During this season of the year, I think something like the moth experience happens. Sometimes I think I have chased this little sin out of my life a long time ago just to realize that actually it has been lurking all that time in the shadow and maybe laying some eggs here and there! When time of fasting and prayer comes, this moth comes back to surface, maybe fiercer than ever but I know that it is a season of grace too, a time of open windows, a time when God blows His Spirit again and renews! 
I think it is time for me to re-examine my car, my soul, for any lurking moth and bring them before the Lord to lead them out definitively! 

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Highlight Love!

Happy Saint Valentine's Day everyone!
It is one beautiful occasion to celebrate love! I know a lot of people who  think this is one commercial feast anyway and one should not celebrate it but I think that Valentine is really proud to know that the day of his beheading is now a day to celebrate love. I mean if I was Valentine myself, which for many reasons is not possible, I would much rather prefer to be an inspiration of love instead to be remembered headless. And really I love and respect and wish and want to be a martyr but at the end of the day, at that final day, we will find God and God is love and not martyrdom (though I think that it should be more earnestly thought after than it is now but that is another topic!).
I did not think much about the 1 Corinthians 13 chapter this year at all for Valentine's but it somehow manages to make surface anyway. (I was more into Medieval love poems and some Chesterton ones, if you care, which I doubt, about what I was focusing on this season!). But as I was saying, that famous passage came to my mind strongly before I went to sleep on this lovingly spent day.
Love covers a multitude of sins.
I remembered my amazing friend once time suggested that I should write about highlight markers, and I really wanted to but I had no idea what these pens would teach me especially knowing that I do seldom use them!
Love covers a multitude of sin!
I was taking a shower and thinking about these highlight makers and Valentines (and my very lovely red velvet cake! Yey! I made one for the first time and it was delicious!! and I am very happy!)
I have been accused of being biased when I talk about my friends but really when you love someone it is not hard to see any wrong in them but it is amazingly easily to love them regardless of that! What I find wonderful is that when you love someone, you do really cover a multitude of weakness they have and boy! how much I get cover up for!! 
When you love someone you start naturally to highlight, to mark out the wonderful attributes they have! And it is really so lovely and beautiful! It is like having this person as a paper full of all sort of information and you start colouring all the wonderful things about their being! All their importance, all their amzingness!!
But my heart lead me to even take a further step towards loving others. To do that little exercise and start highlighting all the lovely and wonderful things I see in every single person and not just the ones that my heart beat for! To earnestly search for it!! To cover their sins, to get past it and to put in the light their most exquisite side! To see them in the eye of the Lord, who knows our limits and our failures but yet sees us in that wonderful loving perspective, highlighting His image in us and putting it to value instead of our own deformed image!

I decided to walk with mental highlight markers from now on! 

Friday, February 13, 2015

Friday Thirteen

You know there is this superstition that says Friday thirteen brings bad luck. I find superstitions fascinating. It is really amazing how they are born out of the ordinary. Correlations that are totally true but deeply erroneous, facts that happened, related to conclusions that are so absurd! But I will not judge because I am no better...
They remind me of my brilliant conclusions on my person or on the world based on something totally true but deeply erroneous (is that an oxymoron anyone?).
I really love odd numbers. If they were persons they would be the ones who would always wear colours and specially a green skirt for the ladies and yellow beret for the gents. 
I really really love lists. There is a charm in reading and doing lists. They are far better than just a summary and clearer! 
I want to profit from this little occasion,  to write down an oddly numbered list for thirteen brilliant unlucky facts about me, that are... totally true ... but deeply... insignificant!
I hope that by this I am made aware of the truth, of the sovereignty of God and of His Love.

1- I will never tan!
3- I will never write a book like Dostoevsky's!
5- I will never love ocra... (but I am willing to try yet again)
7- I will never hear Chesterton in a conference (not in our current existence statuses)!
11- I will never walk on the clouds!
13- I will never be born on a Friday thirteen!
15- I will never make a dress for Queen Elizabeth II (Unless something HUGE happens...)
17- I will never communicate with a bug!
19- I will never be related to Saint Francis in non-spiritual bonds (I mean unless I find an Italian gentleman who's willing to marry me and happens to have Saint Francis as his late-late-late uncle...)
21- I will never be able to eat all the macrons in the world... even if I really want to!
23- I will never be a tree that loses it leaves in winter... I will never be a tree at all.
25- I will never speak all the African dielects!
And saddest of all...
27-I will never be an elven queen!

Friday, February 6, 2015

Valentine's Day

Warning: redundant topic!
I Can't Help Falling In Love With You... ♪♪♫
Some things are meant to be... ♪♫♪ 
Take my whole life too! ♫♫

I am really happy Valentine's day is coming. I think the Church should do like she does for Christmas and Easter, Advent and Lent... A period to prepare for this lovely celebration! Not that I have any sweetheart, be not fooled! but...
God is Love!
Love the Lord from all you heart! Please my heart do that! Do not let this world take your first love away but give him yourself and your whole life too! Worship Him! Give Him thanks! Sing to Lord! Sing till your words are not yours anymore! Walk with Him, talk to Him... Just LOVE the LORD!
And love your neighbour like yourself! Give generously! Pray! pray for every specific need you know they have! and dare you stand idle! Help, work, change, make them smile, make them happy... 
Embarrass yourself and cross all border in love! 

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Become my Reflection

I have a very beautiful friend who has this amazing mind and taste! She is so stylish that I am afraid she eclipses everyone when she passes by! And I must admit I am jealous of her music abilities! (Repent O my soul!)  
She is the kind of friend any one wishes to have. She is thought provoking, genuine, honest, smart,... and today she got me thinking about becomings... She asked: "How do we forgive ourselves for all of the things we did not become?"
I, by no means, am trying to answer this question or offer anything of deep meaning but this question carries a certain type of emotion that moves a poor soul like mine... Words do affect me...
I wanted to tell her that she has nothing to forgive herself for but it seemed a bit vague said like that... I dare not say I know her for there is only One who absolutely knows us but I do know enough to know (are you counting the knows?) that she has become one blooming flower form a very lovingly planted seed! 
I started thinking what  have I or her not become.... Beside wanting to have white hair, I am the most unambitious lady you will ever meet. The things I have not become... Dear me, I must have been living very dumbly all these years, I only wanted to live (truly) and I feel I have achieved the goal so far... but then...
I do not know how to exactly put my thoughts so bear with me...
But then a flow of thoughts filled my mind... Before I created you in the womb I knew you... There is nothing you can become but my Image. You were created to be in communion with me, to be loved by me and to love me and there is really nothing else you must become. Have no remorse and weep not for the past...  with me there is no time, no past, no future... I am here transforming you to become the only becoming you should become. You are  in my hands and I am forming you, you have only to trust me, to put your faith in me, to shift your mind from the focus of this world and his standards and look and me, gaze at my face and become my reflection and nothing else! 
And my soul did rest... and I hope yours too will rest in the knowledge that He knows you and you are becoming who He is in you... because really there is no ambition better or worth more than this one, to be His Reflection! 

 But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.  For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God,  not a result of works, so that no one may boast.  For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works,which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
Ephesians 2:4-10

Monday, February 2, 2015

An Eating Invitation

There is something very genuine about people who love to invite you to eat. 

I saw this lady only once. 
I said hello because she was (and I take a blind guess that she still is) the mother of my friend (what a polite gesture me!) then we exchanged a small conversation about some beautiful (beautiful!!!) coincidence that happened earlier that day. And that was it.
Some people have this ability to mark my poor memory with a mark that never vanishes. 
I remember her hair and when I cut mine last year I thought about her but I did not have the chance to show it to her (if you recognise that this is your mum, you can feel guilty)... 
I remember the way she occupied the space. It was full of grace! Something in her air was just so enviable. A certain calmness, peacefulness,... 
And since opposite attract (not full of grace and all), I attracted her attention! That moment the whole world production of red pigment was condensed in my face. I shrank and tried to hide (ambitious move for someone with long extremities) but she spot me. 
You must be hungry.
No mam, I am fine.
No no please please! Please take a sandwich!
Please, thank you, gracias (insert all politeness words here.) 
Give her to eat, poor little thing...
Thank you very much! (note, polite again) (Bravo mum and dad for raising such a courteous  human being) and I took the sandwich they offered me.
The lady had a million thing on her mind beside feeding me but somehow her world stopped for a moment and all her attention was sweetly directed to me... I felt honoured! 
This is not a one of a kind story. I am sure it happens daily, many many times, but not everyone does it in the same way. Some people do not invite you to eat really just. And you cannot but know it!! They sort of shower you with their love, and the eating invitation is just an extension of their hearts to yours. They do it with a generosity of spirit and a generosity simply that can lead you to almost exploding if you accept it all (and dare you say no!) but I have nutrition tip you, if I may: I believe if you eat what they offer you will not grow one gram fatter! Only because they lit that fire within you that will burn it all!
I have this on my mind today and wanted to share it... An invitation to invite people to eat... To give generously, simply. 
I shall try to apply that as much as possible! Anyone for tea?