Thursday, July 31, 2014

A Natural Cycle

It was late, 21.30. I was walking home. It was a long walk (I was already becoming a huge blob, swollen from the heat and the dust of summer days! Imagine the beauty! My feet are still suffering today (you can be sad for me, compassion is a virtue)...). Midway, I see a shop that was displaying a lot of colourful wool yarns. I was fascinated and stopped to look! (Rest assured this is not a textile eulogy post).
And since we are at the fascination topic, let me divert a little bit from my initial idea (that you have no idea what it is yet! (I feel powerful, and ridiculous, probably more ridiculous than powerful...)) ... I love rituals (maybe that is why I love tea, will have to think about that later... anyway!) I am learning about a Latin and Ancient Greek word everyday and other day I stumble upon the word in Ancient Greek "Emplektos" : stunned, amazed; stupid, senseless... That should kill every doubt you had about my sanity! Stunned and stupid, amazed and senseless. Some people are just fascinated by almost anything... and probably to their downfall... you see... (Please blame the two cups of coffee for this logorrhea and shift in topics)
So! I stop and gaze at the door of the shop, a pretty order, all these shades and beautiful colours, red, green, blue, pink.... Yellow (of course yellow!)... oh wait! that is not a yarn... That thing is moving! My! A little bird in a cage, at 21.30, still awake inside, still agitated.... I could not get my eyes away from it. I was stung in the heart, I felt sad for it. It was bedtime for birdies and he was still awake. I do not mind keeping pets but I do wish we consider very highly their natural cycles.
His image could not leave my spirit. And perhaps my image could not leave the spirit of Him who watches over me when I go against every natural cycle of life with Him and perhaps it stings his heart as much as it stung mine. When I let the world en-cage me with worry, when I let the timing of this life, the rush it imposes, take the place of the peace God intent for us to live in. 
I know the idea of putting a bird in a cage enrages some and the image of freedom always associated with a bird being freed from the cage is somewhat very appreciated but to be honest, I did not feel an urge to free that bird, I did not feel an urge to  be free... There is something in knowing that the heart is free no matter this image of the cage reminded me of... and it lead me to consider the snare of the heart, of what we call life, the world and how much we let it dictate our actions... To put us awake in our sleep time and sleep when we should be wide awake, vigilant to the dangers of the evil one...
Today I woke up with a new determination... To live on His rhythm! To wake up to the peace He bestows, to carry on with the graces He showers me with and to make sure at the end of the day I sleep on the tune of His voice and no one else's! 
Ps. The image! I am super happy I found it! It's a textile place with a cage and a person in it! Could not fit more what I was experiencing! Thank you author of it!!

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

A little Sunday Encounter...

I wanted to start with a warning but I realized that it is becoming so much a habit that it might be scary... but nonetheless (and that is one cool word!) nonetheless (yep. using it again) I warn you that what you will read might sound something like a sociological insight but nope, it is just simple me...
Last Sunday I was walking with my mum and we crossed on our way a couple that I have never seen in my whole life but obviously my mum did because she automatically had her hand out for a handshake and they started to have these random chitchats of how are yous and we miss yous and all ... Obviously I enjoy these... not! but I had to smile, get my hand and wave (I try to avoid handshakes, specially if people were walking... sweaty hands are not really my thing) and while mum was talking to the woman, the man started to talk with me and asking me what I am doing in life and things he will forget before a minute passes but he was so kind and sweet that something in that encounter made me think... 
A total stranger to me, had the freedom to talk to me without much of the creepiness of a stranger because he knew my mum (mum if you ever read this, you are beyond awesome and I love you ♥)...
Now I know that we need to know God personally and we cannot have a relationship with him based on our parents' one but there is something in there, in that small useless conversation, that struck me... Parents do have this ability to channel relationships into the lives of their kids, and a total stranger can in just a minute become someone we know and talk to without complications (and you get it, personally know that person (and it rhymes!))... because he knows mum, or dad for that matter... or rather mum and dad know him... And there lies one responsibility... not really one of education or one of exposure but more of a one that they need to know, truly know, Him and then things can start from there, from the meeting to the greeting (by the way it seems that I might just be a poet!!) to the talk and so on...
And then another event came to my mind. A few people I know now very well, I first got to just wave simply because they were the friends of a dear friend... and I thought, hey! wait a minute... I do not have to wait till I am a mum (not likely that I become a dad so we'll stick to me maybe becoming a mum) to be that channel, that friend that knows the Friend... 
I am not an expert in how this life functions, but I know that yes, we can know people through others and when someone will come and hit me with the idea that God should be "purely" discovered, I will just wave and introduce him to my best friend (because she is awesome and everyone should know her and she gets a heart or two even --> ♥♥ for you) and ask him/her if he got to "purely" know her or not... 
But what I really took from this silly little Sunday event is that to actually invest time in knowing Christ more and more so that if I cross Him while walking with someone, I will have a reflex to put my handout and wave and get things started from there!!

ps. If you want to get to know my awesome friend, leave me a hint and I'll see if you are worth it ^^